The end?

I think this is it now? How many chances can someone have before you have to give up for your own sanity!

Does anyone know of any help available that has worked??

Please let me know of some success stories I am really starting to lose hope that we will start to live a normal life one day...

9th September

Have asked my partner to leave our home. Have no idea how I will afford to pay for the house alone since he has lost his job now! Apparently the police want him as he has stolen jewelry from a customer....could it get worse?!

Hi let me start by telling you a but about myself. I have just had my first child a gorgeous perfect little boy who is my world. I feel that I have let him down with his dad and feel guilt everyday. My partner is an alcoholic one day he agrees he is and then the next he will tell me I'm the one with the problem. Everyday is a struggle with him but since I found out I was pregnant I have been determined to stick with the relationship and help my partner get better. I am not sure if that was a good decision to make or not.

On a daily basis I am lied to constantly, verbally abused and sworn at. I feel like my partner has no respect for me because he drinks. I am constantly googling ways to help him/cure him/get him to help himself..I beg, plead, cry, shout anything to get him to stop drinking. I think if I keep this diary of what is happening I may start to see sense and leave him because in my mind I know that is what I need to do...my heart just wants to stay. I have this idea of the perfect family which involves my baby living with both his parents that I keep clinging to you see.

I feel so angry today. Angry at him for putting drink before me and our baby over again. Angry because now he's lost his job and we are behind with our bills. Our life together is full of incidents/dramas that make up the ongoing saga of his drinking. Things are spiralling and getting worse, this week he was sacked for drinking the spirits of some old lady he was working for one morning.

I don't let him in the house when he's been drinking a lot. He's been known to sleep (pass out!) in the shed, at the bottom of the garden. He even hid in the loft once so he could drink in peace (his words) it's took me a while to get mine and his families to realise the extent of the problem. He steals I have to hide anything valuable from him. He's sold my jewellery for drink money before.

Today I can hardly bring myself to speak to him, I'm afraid we will lose the house we have worked hard for cause we cannot pay the mortgage. I feel deep resentment towards him for this situation but at the same time I feel sorry for him..he can't want this life anymore than I do! He was prescribed tablet to take away the alcohol craving but he hasn't been taking them properly-he says because they don't work...I'm not sure if they don't work because he doesn't take them properly...! It's hard to tell truth from lies anymore he's that good at the lies he convinces himself.

I don't feel like there's a lot of help for an alcoholic the man he was referred to by the doctor said to me one day when I rang him in tears...'he just needs to stop drinking' well yeah...give the man a medal tell me something I don't know...
and HOW?!